Sunday, January 29, 2012

Update on Everythinggg!

I want to start off by saying that I will try to be more .... adamant about blogging 1-2x a week--whether it is completely random or ttc related.

My mom wrote a letter to my OB's office about the Nurse/Midwife whom we talked to after learning peanut was no longer with us. This nurse was downright rude, had no bedside manners, showed no sympathy or empathy, and had no compassion. She expected me to cope with the idea that we lost the baby 10minutes after learning this terrible news..that is unrealistic. She asked me how many times i've been pregnant and I told her 5 times. . . She smiled and asked how many kids I had at home. . . I said 0. She then went on to say "hold on, wait a minute, now i understand".  It does not matter how many kids someone has at home, a loss is a loss...it still cuts you deep. 

I have been playing catch up with homework most of the week -- my motivation is completely gone because I have been extremely exhausted. I work basically fulltime, plus fulltime school, plus everything else I need to do. Plus, i try to make it to the gym 2-3x a week and usually that doesnt happen.

As far as ttc goes, I am almost positive i had another chemical due to the fact i had 3-4 faintly positive tests 1/24-1/27 -- then started bleeding. I am hoping that our luck changes soon and we get blessed with a healthy pregnancy soon.


Thursday, January 12, 2012

First Cycle After Surgery and Everything Else Update

I started using the digital opks yesterday and wouldn't you know it..i got my positives which was not really a shock, because that meant my body is back to normal and hopefully our healthy bean is coming to us---soon! I started weight watchers again 1/3/12. Hoping to lose 30+lbs..but if i become pregnant in the next couple months i'll have to adjust my plan to cater my pregnant self (when the time comes). Today is cd11, and my opks is positive (i just used the cheapie this morning)..i should O by this weekend, which is great! i had a feeling this would be coming b/c i felt the pinching in my ovaries 2-3 days ago. Every 2 wks, we are going to try to set aside 200-250 for gas/groceries but it will mostly depend on what we need that week, and what/how many times I'll need to drive into New Ulm/Mankato/Waconia. We are getting a new stove today or tomorrow too! I am so excited! the one we have is super old, so it'll be nice to have a new stove that has a thermostat that actually works! annnnd its ceramic/glasstop too..so thats a plus! ahhhh! I can't wait. Next, we'll have to look into a new pump for our dishwasher or possibly a new dishwasher...google has become my new best friend! As for the TMMO, because it was James' birthday week..i didnt spend as much as i had wanted to pay off our bills. This next check, however will be starting. I have it kinda planned out in my head..but we'll see how much we will be able to swing...it all depends how much i work or how much James works..and if he gets overtime. If he does...great! if not, we will just have to adjust our TMMO, and pay what we think is reasonable.



Wednesday, January 4, 2012

New Year, New Goals

Just as I thought, my cycle returned fully yesterday(1/2/12), a little over 5 weeks since my d&c. My midwife said, if my first cycle after the surgery seems normal for me, then we can try for our miracle then! I am excited, but we're also very cautious..all we have been doing lately is hoping and praying.

I have decided to start the Spark 24-day challenge by Avocare this month..I am ordering it on thursday. A friend is currently on it and has had results...so i figure i'll give it a try and jumpstart my diet/weightloss. We're also fully, completely doing TMMO also, its hard because i dont feel like im paying enough towards bills, but in the long run i know it is what we need to do, to get them paid off.

Benny has been so good lately, we both cannot imagine life without him! he's our #1 baby. I really don't know what i would do w/o him..I probably would dwell on losing peanut. He's always so cute and playful. We <3 our pup!