Monday, November 28, 2011

Dentist and Post-Op Appt and An Update

It's been 6 days since my D&C and 28days since peanut stopped growing. I'll never ever forget when I found out peanut stopped growing. My husband and I are not quite ready to start trying for Hudson's little brother or sister (i know i know, baby was only 6w4d when stopped growing, but my gut told me baby was a boy, so we named him Hudson James). We're hoping we'll feel comfortable enough to start trying Jan/Feb/March or when the doctor says its okay. My post op appt is in a little over a week and hoping to hear good news back.

I decided to start getting my teeth fixed, because I knew something was up, well I got my teeth cleaned this morning, and they never felt better. Come to find out, i am in the early stage of Peridontitis and it will take 2 appointments each 1 hour long to treat it/make it go away..then to come to a check up every 3months to make sure things are still going good..then after i've done that for 6mo, then i'm back to regular 6mo check ups. I also have a referral to get my wisdom teeth out..oh joy! So that's another thing i need to check around for pricing..might just go to my mom's dentist next time i'm home or something.

I also finally got my husband in to the dentist, his first appt is to see the dentist and talk about what to do/treatment options -- mainly b/c his teeth are soft, no enamel left on them and he has a cracked/half tooth that needs to be taken out or replaced with a permanent implant. I really need him to get his teeth cleaned, so that appt for him is in 2 weeks..which i'll probably need to go with him to, like usual.

I was finally able to go shopping, got myself 2 pairs of jeans, 4 shirts, 8 things from victorias secret, seasons 1-3 of burn notice, and of course some lovely bath and body works stuff! I also have my mom, and my sister half done for christmas, and i have my step mom completely done. Hopefully I can get the rest of gifts bought within the next couple weeks..i'll have to shop around! I usually try to buy for my stepbrothers..but each year my sister and I buy for them..but we never receive anything in this year if they don't buy for us...we are not buying for them for a change..which my dad agrees makes sense..its not fair for us to buy for them and them not have to buy for us.

I'm back at work, after my miscarriage..and it has helped me stay busy and keep my mind off of it, so that's good..but not sure when i'll be able to get my wisdom teeth done..hopefully before christmas

Monday, November 21, 2011

Can't Believe This...

I have been waiting to post this...but I went to my first appt on 11/16/11. I was 8w5d and baby measured 6w4d and no heartbeat. Baby stopped growing at 6w4d is what my doctor figured. I seen the baby on the ultrasound screen and could not believe this..this baby we longed for so long..was with us for a short period of time and we already loved her/him and could not invision this happening! The worst part, was when the nurse told me it was a "fetal demise" and going home to tell my husband why I did not get pictures. My mom cried with me at the doctors..but I still do not know why this happened to us. I let my husband sleep more that day..he got up after my mom left and I just cried and cried and cried not knowing what else to do. My husband cried alot also, something I rarely see him do. I had to make an appointment for a consult to get the d&c surgery done. The nurse called me (i got my levels checked to see where they were at) my levels came back at 33,785 and I asked for a picture for my husband. Our baby's picture is on our fridge, where it will remain for a long time. The d&c surgery is in 2 days..and I just don't know what to feel..i did not think this would happen to us..but i guess god decideds when the time is right..I don't blame him because he is not cruel and does not punish you..this is kind of a blessing in a disguise I guess you could say.

On another note..we paid off 3 bills that we had been trying to--my credit card, my husband'd credit card and my old verizon bill. we just freed $400 up a month! yesss! feels good. My mom is coming up wednesday or thursday to help me after my i hope i have a good and fast recovery.

Monday, November 7, 2011

6/7 Week Update

I am 7w3d today. I have 9 days til my first appt! It's so exciting! I do want to start taking belly pics..but since I was bigger when I got pregnant to begin with -- it makes me wonder when i'll actually be showing. Things have been going pretty good -- i have not really had any morning sickness..its mostly when I think of the smell of something//smell what's cooking -- then i am nauseas. Last night DH made those party pizzas by totinos..and thinking of the smell of them just made me nauseas. I don't eat a whole lot, my appetite is mostly gone..but i do make sure i eat 3x a day for meal wise. I've cut wayy back on caffeine. If i want some pop -- i make sure it is the caffeine free stuff..but i am allowed up to 2 cans of caffeine a day..but i never go over that. I've been drinking alot of juice too which is great. I've been trying to drink alot of water..but it doesnt work out that way. I wanted to cloth diaper this baby, but not sure if i'll be able to right away..pretty sure we'll probably wait til baby is 4-6months before we start to cloth.