Sunday, December 18, 2011

Midwife appt and ttc again

I had an appt to see my midwife Jamie 12/15..but instead of seeing my midwife in Waconia(she got called to do a delivery), I had to go see a different midwife Gina in Chaska. I loved Gina, she's so nice. When the time comes, I think i'll see them both lol..not sure if that is possible though. Gina told me to keep taking my Metformin and my prenatal b/c there are studies that have been done that say that women with PCOS become pregnant, the metformin helps to reduce the risk of miscarriage. I havent started taking the metformin yet, because I need to call Jamie or Gina's office Monday and see what was said about my next steps (gina was going to call jamie to talk about what i had discussed with her at the appt). I have positive thoughts, and I just do not want to go through any infertility treatments--no more than clomid/femara or injectibles, mainly b/c we're still trying to pay off our debts and we are not fully starting the TMMO until next week or january. We're hoping to have my one small hospital bill paid off at the end of the month and that would help us tremendously. We then would have our clinic bill (close to 4k), my car (5k), and DH's hospital bill (23k). I am still hoping to be almost debt free come 2015..but that is a hope not a goal, because i have student loans that will come into repayment Sept 2013 6 mo after I am due to graduate college, and then there is our house too..which is ok to keep paying the amount, because we are in no hurry to pay off our house..but after all our debts are taken care of, we'll probably pay more a month since we'll have the money to do that.

As far as getting pregnant goes, we'll continue to try probably starting again in january or february it depends on a number of things though. We have talked about it and we'll try naturally until april, then after that we'll try clomid/femara and injectible if need be. We are also excited because we're finally going on vacation! We're going to Kississimee/Orlando in March and we're staying at the Westgate Vacation Villas -- my stepdad's condo! so excited! we'll be there for a week..and it is so much needed!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

TMMO, WTT and updates! {early christmas present}

Since we are WTT, we decided to start Dave Ramsey's TMMO and as of right now, we have 34k in debt (includes medical bills and car loan). We just paid off nearly 2k of our debt last month. After Seeing my friend Molly, start the TMMO -- that was when I really started to look into getting the book. I bought the book months ago, and have even read it...but my husband has not read the book and did not really understand how the TMMO works, so I was finally able to sit down and talk with him about how it works. It makes sense though. I am hoping to have atleast half of our major debt paid off by this time next year...*fingers crossed*

I ended up getting a D&C done 11/23/11. My post-op is 12/7/11--and i'll be asking the doctor when is a good time to start ttc again, we are however, waiting the recommended 6wks which would put us at Jan/Feb. The doctor who did my surgery, said that she recommended we wait 2 cycles to start ttc again, so my 1st cycle after the d&c should be around 1/6/12..if it shows right after the 6wks following the surgery. If all goes well, my 2nd cycle should be around 2/2/12 and we will just hope for the best. I will not be ttc just to have baby, we did that for 2 years and all we got was early losses. The minute I focused on something else, we had a sticky baby..but the baby just was not healthy...even though that was the case..we were excited we had a sticky baby--it's hard to understand, but unless you've been there you probably won't. Since I had a very good idea baby was a boy -- we decided to name him Hudson James--even if we won't be seeing him in june :(

We went to Wal*Mart yesterday, only because I needed a few things to make my moms homemade chicken noodle soup, beef stew and to use up some coupons. I told my husband that I wanted a Kitchenaid Stand Mixer and when I seen that it was on sale for $180, I told him that we could put it on layaway and pay it off in another week or so..but when I seen it was in stock at the store...what did my husband say? My husband said, "This can be your early christmas present, I know you've wanted one of these for a long time". I was so happy! I've been scouting online stores to find the best deal, and I could not find one for under $200! I asked him if it was for christmas or early christmas...and he said I could have it now for early christmas. I told him I wanted a Kindle for christmas too..and I think he'll get me one of those too! because, I read alot of Jennifer Cruisie books and it would be a little bit cheaper, and save some space too. We will see.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Dentist and Post-Op Appt and An Update

It's been 6 days since my D&C and 28days since peanut stopped growing. I'll never ever forget when I found out peanut stopped growing. My husband and I are not quite ready to start trying for Hudson's little brother or sister (i know i know, baby was only 6w4d when stopped growing, but my gut told me baby was a boy, so we named him Hudson James). We're hoping we'll feel comfortable enough to start trying Jan/Feb/March or when the doctor says its okay. My post op appt is in a little over a week and hoping to hear good news back.

I decided to start getting my teeth fixed, because I knew something was up, well I got my teeth cleaned this morning, and they never felt better. Come to find out, i am in the early stage of Peridontitis and it will take 2 appointments each 1 hour long to treat it/make it go away..then to come to a check up every 3months to make sure things are still going good..then after i've done that for 6mo, then i'm back to regular 6mo check ups. I also have a referral to get my wisdom teeth out..oh joy! So that's another thing i need to check around for pricing..might just go to my mom's dentist next time i'm home or something.

I also finally got my husband in to the dentist, his first appt is to see the dentist and talk about what to do/treatment options -- mainly b/c his teeth are soft, no enamel left on them and he has a cracked/half tooth that needs to be taken out or replaced with a permanent implant. I really need him to get his teeth cleaned, so that appt for him is in 2 weeks..which i'll probably need to go with him to, like usual.

I was finally able to go shopping, got myself 2 pairs of jeans, 4 shirts, 8 things from victorias secret, seasons 1-3 of burn notice, and of course some lovely bath and body works stuff! I also have my mom, and my sister half done for christmas, and i have my step mom completely done. Hopefully I can get the rest of gifts bought within the next couple weeks..i'll have to shop around! I usually try to buy for my stepbrothers..but each year my sister and I buy for them..but we never receive anything in this year if they don't buy for us...we are not buying for them for a change..which my dad agrees makes sense..its not fair for us to buy for them and them not have to buy for us.

I'm back at work, after my miscarriage..and it has helped me stay busy and keep my mind off of it, so that's good..but not sure when i'll be able to get my wisdom teeth done..hopefully before christmas

Monday, November 21, 2011

Can't Believe This...

I have been waiting to post this...but I went to my first appt on 11/16/11. I was 8w5d and baby measured 6w4d and no heartbeat. Baby stopped growing at 6w4d is what my doctor figured. I seen the baby on the ultrasound screen and could not believe this..this baby we longed for so long..was with us for a short period of time and we already loved her/him and could not invision this happening! The worst part, was when the nurse told me it was a "fetal demise" and going home to tell my husband why I did not get pictures. My mom cried with me at the doctors..but I still do not know why this happened to us. I let my husband sleep more that day..he got up after my mom left and I just cried and cried and cried not knowing what else to do. My husband cried alot also, something I rarely see him do. I had to make an appointment for a consult to get the d&c surgery done. The nurse called me (i got my levels checked to see where they were at) my levels came back at 33,785 and I asked for a picture for my husband. Our baby's picture is on our fridge, where it will remain for a long time. The d&c surgery is in 2 days..and I just don't know what to feel..i did not think this would happen to us..but i guess god decideds when the time is right..I don't blame him because he is not cruel and does not punish you..this is kind of a blessing in a disguise I guess you could say.

On another note..we paid off 3 bills that we had been trying to--my credit card, my husband'd credit card and my old verizon bill. we just freed $400 up a month! yesss! feels good. My mom is coming up wednesday or thursday to help me after my i hope i have a good and fast recovery.

Monday, November 7, 2011

6/7 Week Update

I am 7w3d today. I have 9 days til my first appt! It's so exciting! I do want to start taking belly pics..but since I was bigger when I got pregnant to begin with -- it makes me wonder when i'll actually be showing. Things have been going pretty good -- i have not really had any morning sickness..its mostly when I think of the smell of something//smell what's cooking -- then i am nauseas. Last night DH made those party pizzas by totinos..and thinking of the smell of them just made me nauseas. I don't eat a whole lot, my appetite is mostly gone..but i do make sure i eat 3x a day for meal wise. I've cut wayy back on caffeine. If i want some pop -- i make sure it is the caffeine free stuff..but i am allowed up to 2 cans of caffeine a day..but i never go over that. I've been drinking alot of juice too which is great. I've been trying to drink alot of water..but it doesnt work out that way. I wanted to cloth diaper this baby, but not sure if i'll be able to right away..pretty sure we'll probably wait til baby is 4-6months before we start to cloth.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Beta Levels and How I'm Feeling..

As you all know, my 1st beta hcg came back at 260. My 2nd beta hcg more than doubled in 48 came back at 700! Baby is growing! I have not had much for cramping--other than what is the normal. I have not had any bleeding/spotting so that is good! My midwife kept me on progesterone just incase, because of my past pregnancies. I am pretty sure the other times i've been pregnant..they were either early m/c or chemical pregnancies. I am 5wks pregnant today! 3 1/2 weeks til our first appointment! Hopefully, DH can come to that appt, because we'll be able to see our baby for the first time and hopefully hear the heartbeat! among other things. I am sure Benny knows something is up, he always sleeps near my head, by my back or at my feet when we go to bed. I have extra opk's left over from months ago, so i decided to take one..the test line is wayyyy darker than the control line! yepp, my eggo is preggo! I took a cheapie hpt also..yepp they've gotten much darker! baby is still growing.

We've narrowed down our boys names to Bryson and Hunter. DH need to get used to Bryson, because I feel like that will be our child's name if my intuition is right. I feel like this baby is a boy. When I go to the store, I do not even look at girl stuff -- its straight to the boy stuff. I know its super early, but I picked out my crib! I love it! I just wish these next weeks would fly by, then I could buy it.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

After 2 years, We're Pregnant!!

On October 13th, something felt off to I went to Walgreens and bought 2 boxes of tests. I got home from walgreens/work and took 4 tests..the positive result poped up right away, we were shocked to say the least! We were not expecting to be pregnant right now, especially since we decided we'd stop trying so hard around this time because DH is so busy with field work, I sometimes rarely see him until I go to bed.

October 14th, I went to the clinic to confirm the pregnancy and of course their test came back positive too! yippee! I called my Midwife and I went in for my 1st draw on October 15th---levels that time came back at 260! I'm most deff pregnant! I go back for my 2nd draw on October 17th--levels should double too! Based on my O day, We're due June 22nd! So excited, and when our first appt comes i'm sure the date would change some. we're still so over the moon, especially since I was concentrating on paying our debt off, losing weight ect..and BAM! Pregnant!


Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Herbal Supplements, Work Update and School

I know I know, this is supposed to be my ttc/infertility blog..but sometimes I don't have much to blog about in relating to ttc or infertility. I started taking Maca Root -- it can help with stress, libido, sperm count(for males) and help regulate hormones. I know a couple of women who took maca and it did help with regulating hormones and helped achieve pregnancy by helping with progesterone. This was just some information I found. I had a meeting at work earlier and I found out that Shelby will be moving out of the house I work in this weekend, it came as a shock but it is something we'll have to deal with. Best luck to her in her new house though. I have started working alot lately, and will be completely exhausted by the end of next week. Ever since starting Maca, I have noticed that I have alot more *TMI* ewcm than normal, maybe that is from the maca or maybe it is from the infection i developed due to the antibiotic I was taking.

I am currently on a 2 week break from school before the quarter starts on October 3. Honestly, I cannot wait to start school again because I am completely bored! and the classes i'll be taking I think will be semi-easy. I am taking Word for Windows and Pathophysiology. My gpa went down .23 mainly because I did not pass my Basic Coding class and I have made arrangements to re-take it next quarter and pass it at that time. I am aiming for a 3.0-3.5gpa. I should graduate next december, due to only taking 2 classes, instead of 3 this quarter. After I graduate, I plan on going back for either HIT or Medical Assistant. I still have plenty of time to think about it though.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Cloth Diapering, MFP and Doctor Appt

MFP stands for My Fitness Pal. I have been tracking my calories for the past couple months. I have lost a total of 14lbs (without exercise) since starting. I first started MFP in June, I lost my motivation and stopped, then started WW again. WW is great, but I did not lose weight on the program. I tried very hard for over a year, but my weight would just fluctuate too much for me. A friend suggested I try MFP and so I did. I started eating 1300-1490 calories a day, I eat 3 meals a day with a snack or two depending on how many calories I had left at that time. I never thought I would be able to lose weight, especially with having pco/pcos.

My husband has mentioned to me a couple times that he would like to cloth diaper our child (whenever that child comes to us). I agreed because it would save alot of money. I started looking into cloth diapers and stubbled upon Best Bottom Diapers & Happy Heinys. I ordered 2 of the shells from amazon, though they are the Best Bottom diapers and 3 inserts for under $50. Not too bad considering how much money we'll be saving in the long run. I plan on buying a couple cloth diapers each month. I think I'll get 2 of the Happy Heinys next. The happy heinys do come with 2 inserts (when you order the cloth diaper, you get 2 inserts you get all that for $18.95) not too shabby. I have looked at FuzziBunz, Happy Heinys, BumGenius, and gDiapers. Its alot to research, but if you're determined to save money and make sure its the best thing for your child it is not a bad idea to try. Alot of companies offer a trial period to try their cloth diapers and if you do not like them you can send them back. Cloth diapers also are known for now giving your child any type of diaper rash. You do not have to go by what I have researched--it is just what I have found and it is the best thing for my future child.

October 11, My husband and I have an appointment in Waconia to start seeing a new doctor.  This new office that we are going to has ob/gyn and midwives. The upside is that the clinic/center(its called Western Ob/Gyn Women's Health Center) has an relationship with an RE office in Minneapolis, and the RE come to the office 1x a week to see patients. That way the patients do not need to drive into the city just to see their RE. Don't get me wrong, I love love love my RE, i just hate driving in to the city just to be seen for 5-10min. I am hoping this new doctor will get me answers to my current questions.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Switching Doctors

Lately I've been thinking of finding a new ob. Mine doesn't seem like she wants to deal with me since referring me to a reproductive endocrinologist. I began researching ob/gyn near me and found Western OB/GYN Women's Health Center in Waconia. I have talked it over with my love, and he thinks its worth a shot--maybe we can find out about why I keep having these recurrent miscarriages. We do not have issues getting pregnant..its making it stick past the first trimester.

I have wanted to give up.and quit many times, but here I am still ttc 25months and counting. Our miracle is on its way...just a matter of when..when god thinks we are ready.

"Never give up on something that's worth fighting for"
"Even miracles take a little time"

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Ttc Update, Pregnancy Miracle E-book?!, Finals, Baby things, and Vitamins!!

I was searching for other ttc blogs on google, and came across this "Pregnancy Miracle" ebook. I read it, and it just had the same information over and over. It's funny how when you're infertile and battling infertility that all these companies have just the right "thing for you to get you pregnant." I did not believe it of course, it is all common sense. You need to eat the right foods, possibly start thinking about acupuncture and getting healthy for that baby that you hope to be pregnant with soon enough.

I have finals this week, so it is crunch time. I am hoping and praying that i pass my Medical Coding class, because I really do not want to have to re take it! but if i do, i will probably end up going on campus because it would make more sense to take there versus online. Every other class I am taking I am doing good in!

I was supposed to see my RE this cycle, but I put it off til the end of the month when AF is supposed to show around September 27th. DH (my love) usually tries to come with to my appointments because he likes to know what happens during them. I've decided to not tell him when im ovulating, or close..even though he knows i use the opks. Today, was a different thing. When i don't tell him when i get a + opk, he spends more time with me which is good and that leads to being intimate.

When it is our time to have a baby, we're prepared. I have been pregnant 4x in the past year and a half. Each time i've been pregnant, we've bought something. When i was pregnant in July 2010, we bought baby bedding. When I was pregnant in August 2010, we bought a pack and play. When I was pregnant in March 2011, We bought a swing. When we were pregnant in June 2011, we bought a high chair. These are all things that the safety would not expire for a while. I hope that it is our time for our miracle soon, i've been so sad about it lately.

I started taking Vitagummies, the Multivitamin's because I think i am lacking most of the vitamins. Plus they're i do not need to swallow any thing! and they're sooo good! I've heard that Evening Primrose Oil (EPO) helps with fertility, along with  vitex, maca, and guaifenesin.

This is where i ordered the epo, vitex, maca & guaifenesin from Baby Dreamers TTC Supplies
The seller is great, and everything is well priced. She has a fertility enhancement package right now---1 bottle of EPO, 3 bottles of maca & 1 bottle of guaifenesin for $45..)but if you want to add a bottle of vitex instead of 3 can be 2 maca and 1 vitex, you can still get it for 45 incl. shipping!)

Friday, August 19, 2011

Exercise is calming

I just took a walk with 2 clients at work. Shelby and Matilda, they had so much fun! Shelby was exhausted when we were almost done, but Matilda could have walked another few few blocks or for another half an hour. We walked a little over a mile I felt so good

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

TTC Update and Stress

I know I have not updated in almost a month..I've been so busy with work, school and Benny (our dog). As of 8/2/11, we have decided to stop using opks, bbt or tracking//charting my cycles to ease the stress of ttc. Since James and I decided this, it has made trying for a baby much less stressful and it is not all about timing ovulation anymore...more about just us being intimate together and enjoying each other. In other words, we decided to try with out trying//not trying, not preventing. We were supposed to see my RE on 8/13/11 for him to monitor my cycles without any meds and a day or so before the appointment..we decided to just take a much need "ttc actively break" to work on myself and our debt. The less debt we have whenever we do get pregnant, the better. A little part of me does not want to quit actively ttc, but I know it is the best thing for us and our marriage. I have seen married couples fall apart because of the stress related to ttc and I do not want that for my husband and I. I am also looking into getting some yoga dvd's that can help with conception also.

Weight Watchers is amazing and I've lost 11/13lbs since starting it actively at the end of may/beginning of june which is wonderful! I never thought with me having pcos, that I would be able to lose weight without having a very difficult time doing so. As of August 16th, I have lost 5% of my start weight (when i started ww i was 249) and now (i am currently 236) yesssss! it feels so good. i have 36lbs to go to reach my almost pre-depo shot weight!

Monday, July 18, 2011

Blood Test Results....Some of them

My doctor's nurse just called me with some results from the blood work I got done last week. The Lupus Anticoagulant, Antithrombin, Protein E (these are just some of them). From just those results, I do not have blood clotting issues. I am still waiting to hear something about the Factor v lieden & mthfr mutation test results.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Homework, Bloodwork & Work!

I am so excited! for once I am completely motivated to get all my homework in BEFORE this sunday's due date! I have one assignment left, and will be done by tonight! Yesterday, I went in to my clinic to get bloodwork done, because I wanted to get tested for factor v. lieden and mthfr mutation. My OB ordered 7, yes that's right 7 different tests! I don't remember all of what they are testing me for, but I do know that they're testing me for factor 5, factor 2, lupus, protein, protein deficiency, a.n.a & antithrombic (im not completely sure that all of these are right b/c the lab tech rambled all 7 off quickly). I am hoping to know something by next week! Tuesday, July 12th was my medication admin training to be able to pass meds at work! it was goood! i was so nervous to pass meds, and once I did it was a piece of cake. I am so glad to be out of training now, but there are going to be times where the ladies in the house will get me (i work with the developmentally disabled). I love my job, more than anything. I look forward to going to work everyday! :)

Friday, July 8, 2011

Miscarriage and Blood Test

I know I posted that we got pregnant last month...but on July 3rd it ended with an early miscarriage//chemical pregnancy. If some of you do not know what a chemical pregnancy is when you get pregnant and for whatever reason the embryo/fetus/baby does not stick and ends in an early miscarriage. My cycle started July 4th ( i spotted for 3 days before). I finally got my results back from my blood test to check for any abnormalities with my chromosomes......and the results were NORMAL!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Yes, It's True....

After 22 months of TTC......we are PREGNANT!!!!

Due March 8, 2012!!!!!

Saturday, June 18, 2011

School Break and Update

Yesterday was offically the last day of the quarter for school!!! and I am on break for 2weeks, so excited! New quarter of school starts July 5..and I'm hoping it goes by kinda slow..because I am not really looking forward to the 4 classes I'm taking next! I went to the doctor yesterday...and i have an infection. Pretty sure we're out for ttc this month. we'll still try...but not really expecting to get pregnant this month..

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Back to my Diet...

I have been discouraged, frustrated..everything about my current diet. A fellow BG member referred me to mfp and I've decided to try that and stick to ww too. My issue was, I was being lazy and did not want to write down everything I ate or drank. I am done being lazy, I have a goal of 50lbs that I want to accomplish within the next year. I am going to keep on doing what I am doing and by doing that i'll be one more step closer to holding my blessing in my arms.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Fertility Appt & Answers

Yesterday, I had my first fertility appointment with my new RE. After going through everything that he received from my OB/GYN, he asked questions and came to the conclusion that the only reason I would even need clomid is to produce better quality eggs. He did tell us that he believes that I do ovulate on my own without the help of clomid. We have never heard that before so we were kind of surprised. He ordered a blood test for me because he wants to check my chromosomes. There could be a chance that the reason we have miscarried 3 times in the past that james' chromosomes are 18 over 21 and my chromosomes are 21 over 18..they do not match up which would cause an early miscarriage. I did ask about low progesterone..and he said the only cause of low progesterone would be if I did not ovulate or if i did the low progesterone was pre-determined early in my cycle. He also said that if i am not pregnant, I am to call on day 1 of bleeding and schedule a day 12 ultrasound for a follow up. My dr is 1 1/2 hours away from me..but it is not a bad drive once you know where you are going. James came with because he had questions about everything too. I really feel good about this new doctor...he is sure that we'll be parents within the next 2 years & I cannot wait.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


This is my first cycle in 22months that I am not on meds & will be getting a POSITIVE opk! I could not be more excited. I think working out and following weight watchers has been a good choice for me...that and only drinking water! If all goes estimated due date is Valentines day! *crossing fingers*

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Miscarriage & Doctor Appointment

I successfully got pregnant in april with the help of clomid, but sadly miscarried yet again. I had a doctor appt yesterday to talk to my ob/gyn and see what she thinks we should do next. She is referring us to an RE/FS, but might not get in to see until the middle of the summer. My ob/gyn believe I will be pregnant (and past the first trimester) by the end of the summer, beginning of the fall. She did however, give me 2 more cycles worth of clomid and progesterone suppositories to take 2 days after ovulation. I am super excited..we will be parents yet!

EDIT: Our RE/FS appt is in 8 days!!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Cycles, Meds and An Update

I am pretty sure that I got pregnant in april, but as the rest of my pregnancies ended in a did this one. I made an appointment with a doctor who treats infertility/pcos for June 3rd at 8am. I feel as if I need to exhaust my options and choose a better doctor who will help me and not hurt me. Hopefully I can get some kind of answers though. My cycles are still 29 day cycles which is great...but the question is still whether or not I can/will ovulate on my own. I guess I will find out later this month.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Cycles & Ovacue FM

I'm hoping to get the ovacue fertility monitor by the end of this summer. I've heard good reviews about it (some were even by some women who have pcos like i do & did get hope is not lost). Its just a matter of talking dh into agreeing to let me get it lol. I really, have low expectations for getting pregnant this month. it stinks, i just dont feel like i timed it right. We will see though.
Im starting to wonder if I do o on my own or not(i know i have talked about this  issue before, but im not completely sure if i do or do not o). Since i have pcos, im not sure if i o every month or not. my cycles arent irregular though..which is a symptom of pcos. the only real symptom i have is the cysts on my ovaries, overweight (always a struggle..since getting off the depo shot)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Couponing & Fertile Focus

Have anyone seen the new TLC series called "Extreme Couponing?" I have and I must stay, it looks pretty interesting. I want to learn how to coupon, but not the the extent the people on the show have, like I do not want a stockpile, i just want to cut my grocery bill in half. I think they take it beyond extreme, I watched an episode the other night, and a woman had enough noodles to last over 1 year, but yet she goes out shopping and picks up 112 more boxes! She already had 2 rooms dedicated to her stockpile and yet she already was telling her husband he had to give up his man cave because she NEEDED the space for her stockpile. Uhm, thats taking it a little far..Its glorified hoarding I believe.

I bought this fertile focus ovulation microscope. It is supposed to work better than OPKs. I tell you, it works wonders. Since I have pcos, i do not always ovulate. This cycle, I took my last prescription of clomid. As of this morning I have hit the transitional phase which means soon I shall hit the ferning phase. I love this thing! so much easier than bbt, or opks. non fertile=bubbles, transitional=bubbles & crystal like pattern and ferning=crystal like pattern all over! its amazing. All you do, is pop off the screen with you thumb, put some saliva  from under your tongue on the screen & let it dry for 5 min. When the 5 min is up, you put the screen back on, and press the light button and look into the light as if you were looking in a microscope. I suggest this little thing to anyone who's TTC!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

House Warming Party & Family

We had our house party family could come and see our house. Long day, but loved every minute of it. I missed everyone, especially my sisters, my momma, grams and my daddy. It was a good turn out. Food was good too. Next week, the 22nd of april, I am having my dad's family over for an easter meal, since it is really the only time our schedules work to have the holiday meal. It is my first holiday meal at our house, I can't wait. Benji loved all the people too...he's my baby and soooo loveable!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Benji and Babydancing

I did not realize how hard it would be to ttc with a puppy. He's always right by me 24/7, except at night when in bed he's laying on my husband. This month is the last month on 100mg of clomid and I am taking baby asprin also. I hope that this works for us..otherwise we'll be back to no meds or trying fertilaid and hope for the best. I love my puppy (he's 9months old) but I would love it if he would not bark/whine while in his room while we're trying to babydance. I understand him though, he doesnt want to be away from us.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

College and Haircolor...

I have given it much thought and I need to take time off from TTC. It is always on my mind and that cannot be good. I am not going to stop TTC, just stop thinking about it so much. I have been in college since April 2010. I was on the dean's list for fall quarter(oct-dec) and I am pretty sure I'll be on it again for winter quarter(jan-march). I dyed my hair black a few months ago and I want to lightened it my natural color of light brown but I'm thinking I'll need to strip my hair of the color and have to dye it the light brown and add high lights. I'm not sure how much it'll i'll need to call salon's tomorrow. Im thinking no more than 100$ I hope.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Reaching my goal..

January, I started trying to lose weight. My goal is to be under 200lbs by 2012, but it may be sooner than that. Since January I have lost 7lbs and I feel great! Since I have been out of work for almost 3weeks, I feel much more motivated and energized.

Saturday, March 19, 2011


I decided a weekend  spent at  my moms is a thing I needed to do. It most certainly takes my mind off ttc. Bringing the pup was not a good idea...I am exhausted. My mom put all 3 dogs outside this morning (her 2(echo & scootie), plus my 1(benji) ) and when I went to let them in.....low and behold MY puppy(..dug a hole and was all full of mud (mainly on his paws). He does not like it when you touch his we had to pour the bucket of water on his feet and make him stand in it to clean him off. Scootie was muddy too..but he was easy to get clean. It was a very entertaining day to say the least. Now I am beading with my mom.. She makes necklaces, earrings, keychains and soon is starting to make bracelets.


We had been thinking of TTC vs Adopting. We started considering adoption because it is a wonderful thing to do and hoped we could. After thinking about both of them for a few months and considering both options, we have decided that we are going to ttc until we get our miracle. The road will be a long one, but it will be worth it. A friend once told me, "If a doctor isn't doing all they can to help in a situation such as getting pregnant, you need to find one who will give their all".